Episode 23 recap: Exposure of the farewell letter resolves Lei Ming's inner turmoil.
In fact, every high school student, while claiming not to be anxious on the surface, actually experiences varying degrees of anxiety. However, most people can manage and alleviate it through self-regulation. Only Shen Yao's response, among others, surprised Sang Xia, but it was within reason. Lei Ming looked at his past course materials, which still contained the scores of every student. With courage, he opened the folder of Zheng Qian and memories gradually flooded his mind. Lei Ming had already written his evaluations of Zheng Qian in the relevant materials, and he diligently recorded every conversation and discovered issue.
Lei Ming's attention made Zheng Qian feel valued for the first time. Lei Ming knew her circumstances were not good, so he stayed to help her with her studies and even gave her gifts. Yes, Zheng Qian mistakenly believed this affection was a romantic one. But even so, Zheng Qian never gave up following Lei Ming.
One night, Lei Ming suddenly saw Zheng Qian crying alone by her bicycle. He hesitated for a moment but ultimately decided not to approach her. It was also because of Lei Ming's rejection that Zheng Qian couldn't truly move on. Coupled with her pre-existing tendency toward depression, it led to Zheng Qian's suicide. Sang Xia originally wanted to get to know Shen Yao better as a stranger, but Shen Yao quickly saw through Sang Xia's intentions. Sang Xia decided to have a private conversation with Shen Yao. This QQ number belongs to Shen Yao's alternate account, which Sang Xia had a hard time adding.
Shen Yao took the initiative to tell Sang Xia about when he was still in primary school. He saw classmates cutting off a butterfly's wings with a knife on the road. However, the butterfly didn't die immediately. After Shen Yao discovered their actions, he was brutally beaten by his classmates, while he stayed by the side of the butterfly.
In Shen Yao's heart, he is that butterfly, which is why he resorts to self-harm to remind himself. Sometimes, Shen Yao doesn't even have the courage to continue living because his family is far from being a complete one. The feelings he experiences started in the first year of high school, but his father's company thrived, his mother gave birth to a younger brother, and when Sang Xia asked about Shen Yao's brother, he said they weren't familiar with each other.
Sang Xia told Shen Yao to release all the anger inside him and not to keep it bottled up like before. Subsequently, Shen Yao went to the venting room and expressed his dissatisfaction loudly. In the evening, Sang Xia continued to encourage Shen Yao, hoping that he could truly find himself again.
After some time, they found many posts related to Zheng Qian through their investigations. Li Ran even found Zheng Qian's alternate account blog, but they couldn't access it because it required a password.
The password that everyone is still discussing may be related to Lei Ming. Sang Xia is also telling Lei Ming that everyone wants to help him.
After returning home in the evening, Lei Ming tried using the time he first met Zheng Qian on her first day of school as the password. Unexpectedly, it actually opened Zheng Qian's blog, and he also discovered the secret that was deeply buried in Zheng Qian's heart. After reading it, Lei Ming hurriedly went to find Zheng Qian's mother.
During this time, Shen Yao would always go to Sang Xia to discuss psychological issues. Sometimes he even doubted whether his mother liked him because they always had a "Plan B." Sang Xia was there to help Shen Yao reduce stress and gave him some methods to relieve pressure.
Sang Xia also told him that if he ever wanted to talk, he could come to her. When Shen Yao left the psychologist's office, he suddenly saw a photo, and that photo was Zheng Qian's chat avatar at the time. Shen Yao immediately realized that the photo was flipped, and the girl in it was not flying but jumping off a building.
In Zheng Qian's diary, there was actually a farewell letter. She had already planned her death in advance. When Zheng Qian realized she had depression, she secretly went to the hospital to see a doctor, but the doctor said it was just her high levels of psychological stress. However, Zheng Qian did indeed have significant psychological problems and knew that antidepressant medication was expensive, so she didn't dare to mention it to her mother. The encouragement from her classmates in class made her lose faith in life for a while, until Lei Ming appeared, bringing a glimmer of light to her heart.
Zheng Qian said she had already had suicidal tendencies for a long time, but she just hoped to embrace Lei Ming before leaving. After hearing what I said, Lei Ming completely broke down. He discovered the words Zheng Qian had written on the ceiling above her bed, and Lei Ming imagined that he could have discovered all of this before Zheng Qian jumped off the building, perhaps convincing her to give up on suicide.
Soon, the students of Class 11, under Sang Xia's organization, were helping Lei Ming clear his grievances. Zheng Qian's mother also remembered what her daughter had told her about depression. If she hadn't labeled depression as a mental illness that day, if she had noticed something wrong with her daughter's expression, perhaps everything could have been different.
Zheng Qian's mother also published her daughter's farewell letter on the internet, clearing Lei Ming of unjust accusations. The current online comments are indeed very serious, and students' mental issues are an important aspect that deserves attention.
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